Sunday, December 31, 2006

Dizzy From My Tizzy

Well, I'm still in my mental rut, however, I'll bow my head to the arrival of the new calendar year. I'm over here, you're over there. Which is better? It's all about perspective.

My beloved birdfeeder is such a great distraction. Matt keeps them very well fed. I vow to eat with gratitude. Live with pause and thoughtful process. I have all the basics. I'm surrounded by love. I haven't been thankful, and I am exhausted from ambiguity.

So, where do I find the "kick in the ass" that I so need to give me a healthy jump start. Some where in a Foghat tune, I'm sure.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Where'd The Year Go?

HS! Where'd the year go? I'll tell ya. Right here. It hasn't moved. Time is a block of frozen anxiety with me. Nothin's changed. I'm still staring at my old designs waiting for them to animate themselves and I'm about ready to heave ho everything. What the hell happened to me? I'm surrounded by the same stuff I did in 1992! I gotta get skinny and I gotta get this crap outta here!

I've got about a 1/2 hour window of time before I collide with routine. Here I sit, trying to figure this out. I can't believe it's happening. I'm getting swallowed up by the Nothing! I need some heavy tunage, a sound book and some strong coffee to snap out this...